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Alan Cummingis reflecting on his struggles with mental health.
The 56-year-old actor spoke to Anthony Mason onCBS MorningsTuesday about his new memoirBaggage: Tales from a Fully Packed Life. During the discussion, Cumming opened up about the difficulty he had navigating his divorce and the “abuse” he faced from his father as a child.
In the interview, Cumming revealed that one his “darkest moments” was the day he auditioned for the 1995 James Bond filmGoldeneye. Looking back, he realizes that he was suicidal at the time.
“It was one of the worst days of my life actually. I felt really, really, really low. I just now think, ‘Oh you poor little thing, you could’ve said I am feeling suicidal today,'” the actor said.
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However, after receiving a call about landing the role as Boris Grishenko in the film, Cumming said his life turned around.
“That’s something I realized when I was writing, like, oh my God, Hollywood saved me,” he said. “I have this sort of mantra, which is ‘Cancel, continue.’ When something bad happens I think, okay that happened, we can’t change that, let’s move on.”
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The Scottish actor’s second memoir is a follow-up to his 2014 bookNot My Father’s Son. It details Cumming’s painful upbringing as well as a behind-the-scenes look at how his childhood experiences trickled into his journey through Hollywood.
Alan Cumming’sBaggage: Tales from a Fully Packed Lifeis available now.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), text “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 or go tosuicidepreventionlifeline.org.
source: people.com
